Career Crisis~~~~

I'm really in a dilemna as to what to do.... Haiz.... I noe that i won't stay long in my current job as:

1. Bad boss
2. Too admin work, not really adding value to my resume unless i plan to be head of admin.. -_-
3. Contract job
4. No interest

I wanted to change but as everyone noe... The economy is bad now and i tink everyone will say stay in the job until find something beta....

Wanted to try out **** but den my mum disapprove.... Although i use to tink like her.. But.... If you are not taking a chance, you will never know... Maybe i will make it big???? Cos i dun tink i'm a desk-bound type of ppl......

But there is other point too.... I, myself, also scare that i wont be able to make it..... I need to change my mindset, be more confident and also more decisive...... I believe if i can make it, i will be a beta person????? lol.... no lah... but maybe stronger character???

The problem is.... Do i have the courage to make the step out without my mum's support?????

Afraid of trying new things and also failure is almost everyone weakness and also the traditional thought of everyone...... Stable job with stable income is good..... But when will i make it big???? in my 40s? 50s?.......

I know that it will be tough in the first few months... except with my weak mindset..... I thought of giving myself 6mths to prove myself..... After that, if i still cannot, i will go back to my stable job and stable income.....

Conclusion...... I still dunno what to do.... Maybe if my mum support me, i will try.... But now... I really really dunno what to do..... Haiz....

Long time never blog le.... Cos after work very tired den weekend want to rest...... Got soooo many grumbling from work.... But dun waste time toking abt the unhappy stuff.....

Went to Bangkok with my youngest in end Feb... And here are some pics......

We took Tiger Airways... 12.40pm flight..... The flight was bumpy... OMG... When we passed through the clouds, it feels like riding on mild roller coaster..... We really jumped out of our seats.... Luckily nth happens and i'm still here bloggin.....

Anyway, when we reached there and after checking in all that, we were veri veri hungry.....

So.... We decided to go hunt for food.... And our first meal there is................



PHAD THAI....... With coconut drink and we even tried something new..... Milky Chicken...... Taste ok.......

After that, we went shopping at pratunum market as we stayed nearby.....On the way back, i saw something familar.... That is the "banana prata" i tried when i went to Phuket last year.....



We bought 1 back to the hotel for supple... :) I tink prefer one is nicer.....

Took some pic of our shopping loots.......

Each of us bought 3 shoes and it is onli the first day!!!!

The shoes are onli at 99 baht each...... less den $5.... So cheap....


Bottom 3 is mine......

Mine - 2 top and 2 dress.....



My aunt - 5 dress.....

We bought a shawl each......

Oh yeah... forgot to introduce our hotel.......

We stayed at The Ecotel.... Ven recommended de... Cos she stayed there with her bf b4....

Overall not bad lah... The hotel staff quite friendly..... But the shower water is either too hot or too cold.... We need to adjust it throughout shower..... And the air-con too.... But ok lah... that one not much prob.....

Our second day, we went to CTC..... It was raining in the morning.... Luckily it stopped while we were there.....

After that, we proceed to MBK for our late lunch at Fuji..... The price is really cheap compare to singapore and the portion quite big too.....

My aunt ordered the tempura set....

Extra side dish....

Mine is the sushi set.......

We are both every satisfied with our bento set.... :)

After lunch, we went for manicure... A muz do in BKK.... Cheap and nice.....

I do hand and leg for 400Baht onli.....

My aunt too.... It's all hand drawn.... But the bad thing is, we sit there for 1 hr plus.....

After we went back to hotel, we proceed to do massage....... I love the massage there.... Last time i went to the one near Asia hotel, need 200baht 1hr massage.... But we found a cheaper one 150baht onli.......

Near our hotel, there are some food stalls.... So we decided to try some.....

Chao Siew Mee.....

Like Oyster omelette..... But with more ingredients... Like mussel, clams, lala and prawns..... I like it that they fried until crispy.... But quite oily....

Loots at CTC.......

My aunt's loots.....

The third day, we went pratumn market and platium mall..... That night was raining when we came out from Platium Mall.... Luckily the rain begin to get smaller after awhile and we decided to flag a cab.... But it's veri hard... Cos the road was jam...... And the people tell us walking back to the hotel is faster den taking cab....... So we decided to drag our tired legs when our heavy loots back........

Finally, we reached our hotel.... Wanted to go Chinatown for dinner.... But the cab driver told us the traffic is veri heavy... Will take 1-2hr to get there.... Therefore, we changed our plan and went to the nearby seafood resturant near our place....

We ordered prawn ve..... (dunno how to spell), tomyan soup, fried sotong and kang kong....Dunno they have kang kong too.... :)

Very very full meal.... yum......

Last day... Going back to Singapore in the evening..... Last minute shopping at pratum market and den a trip to the hair salon.... My aunt cut and dye 1000 baht.... I juz cut and treatment 600baht.... The lady boss veri nice.... Her english quite good.... Even treat us "Ice Kachang" and "Banana prata".... Their "Ice Kachang" looks like ours... But the ingredient they have more variety...... She ordered the Ah Ta Che one for us...... Cos the weather veri hot......

At the airport... Sob.....

Last meal...... Dinner - Pizza.... Veri nice.... I like the crust... Veri crispy... And the ingredient... We ordered seafood pizza... They are veri generous with it.... Unlike singapore.....

It is near to gate F....

Goodbye Bangkok...... I will be back......

Oh yeah.... add on......

I want to pass my driving test!!!!!!!!

MY NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS / WISHES

1. Lose 10 more kgs
2. Find a better job
3. Save more money :P
4. Hope the economy will be better
5. And also Bangkok will become more peaceful so that i can go there shopping again... lolx...
6. Good health for everyone
7. Keep my room tidy
8. Take up Japanese
9. Take up a course
10. Sign up for gym
11. Sign up for facial
12. Travel to a new country
13. Find a bf
14. Make more friends
15. Be more attentive, confident

Well, that's all i can tink of.. Will add on if i remember anything else.......

This has been a hectic year end for me....

Haiz......

My great grandmother just passed away yesterday.... Before that she was hospitalised for a few days at TTSH.....

Cos that time she fell down, but when we took her to the doctor, she was ok..... But a few weeks later, late at night, she can't get down the bed....

So we called for a doctor.... The doctor prescribed some medicine but said that there was no major illness......

And the second time was when she was feeling very sicked and we called the doctor she saw frequently and the doctor REJECTED to come.... We are sooooooo pissed off..... Damn doctor... So arrogant.... So we asked another doctor to come and he said that we should admit her to the hospital immediately as her blood pressure is veri low..... But my great grandmother dun wan to go or we would have her admitted earlier... She is veri stubborn and we cant force her.....

Luckily, the doctor managed to persuade her and we faster called for ambulance..... Tat night, she was admitted to TTSH...

For her first and second day there, her talking made no sense at all.... She cannot recognise ppl and keep asking who we are..... The nurse said that it is because her potasium level is veri low which made her felt confused....

And also, she is talking the whole day...... The night she was admitted, one of my aunts stayed over there to keep her company.... And the second night is my mum and my turn.... We went there after work, but of course after bathing and having dinner.... Every night, there will be someone to accompany her.... Cos she dun wan to be alone and were scared.....

When we reached there, she was still talking nonsense and talking non-stop..... Saying she saw things, like dog, ppl, etc..... She kept wanting ppl to "tui" her back and massage her shoulder...... And also, when she wan to urine or pass motion, she wan it immediately.... Cos she is bedridden, so she is using the bedpan..... And we need to ask the nurse for it....

She want it immediately..... If not, she will start complaining y it took so long, blah blah......

So usually we will have a bedpan under the bed for standby... But that night, she wan it like every 15mins.... And there was once, there was no clean bedpan avaliable.... so we need to wait for the clean one... And they need to wash and sterlise before giving it to us.... So my great grandmother had to wait......

That was a long night for us..... She kept talking and her voice was quite loud, and everyone was sleeping.... Den the patient in front of us complained to the nurse that she was making alot of noise and disturbed her.... But what can we do?????

It went on until finally at 3am+, she slept and we were able to take a short nap... The chairs were not comfortable, but i managed to sleep for abt 2 hours and i wake up cos of butt pained... lolx......

Luckily, this time, my great grandmother slept until ard 7am... We were so scared that she will wake up suddenly.......

After that, we waited for my aunt to come to take over.....

She was hospitalised for abt a week and everyday she will demand to go home and said that the doctor tricked her there......

Actually she is supposed to come home on Christmas eve.. But the doctor said they need to do a checkup on her heart condition, so it was delayed for 2 days.....

When she came home to my grandfather house, she expect there to be someone to wait on her 24/7.... My grand aunt is staying next door so she will come by occasionally to help out...

Everyone was tired.... As my uncle shared a room with her, he practically dun get to sleep at night as she was talking or wan to urine..... Of cos, if she wan to urine, my grandma will help her.....

Den there is the medicine..... Everyday, she needs to eat ard 10pills.... And she keep saying she had a hard time sallowing the pills...... And she wan to medicine she took last time......

But the medicine from the hospital is for her cholestrol, high blood pressure, asthma, plagum, heart, blood, etc..... She needs to eat them....... In the end, she refused to eat the medicine..... But there's nth we can do.....

In the end, they were talking abt hiring a maid with experience in taking care of elderly to help out...... But it's too late...... Before the maid can come, she already passed away.....

Tat day, she was still looking fine... But she is complaining of chest pain and breathing difficulty....
After we went home, she asked to see doctor, but at time is was late and the clinic all closed.. So my uncle suggested to go hospital, but she rejected.... So my grand aunt told her to wait til tmr morning and she said that cannot wait til tmr...... And she kept asking abt today's date and time....

No one suspect anything until at night when my grandmother heard no noise and asked my grandfather to check on her, den he discovered she had passed away... It was ard 12am+ to 1am.... They informed everyone and after we heard the new, my mum and mi hurried off.....

Strangely, that night, although i'm asleep, i am still very awake when the phone rang.... When we reached my grandma hse, there were a few relatives there and my great grandmother's body was in the living room..... They were waiting for the doctor to come to issue a dealth certificate before they could do anything....

Actually, they asked the doctor she saw frequently, the doctor's clinic opened at 9am so my uncle informed the nurse to ask the doctor to come immediately after he arrived... We waited until 9am+ and he was still no there..... Everyone was soooo angry with him.... Cos actually, we could have call the doctor from the nearby 24hr clinic to come.... but cos she is more familiar with the other doctor, so we asked him instead......

He is damn damn arrogant..... Condemned him..... Hope his business will fall.... (hmm.. maybe.... cos my relatives quite big..... words spread...)

In the end, we asked the furneral company to arrande everything....... After everything was ready it is about 4pm.... My mum and i wen back to take a bath and a short nap..... Went back ard 6pm+ to help out......

Luckily, my manager asked me to stay at home today... Actually i planned to go back work today, cos half day onli... My mum need to go work.. Cos her colleague taking leave and there is no one to take over her work......

Today will be staying at the funeral to countdown to new year...... Sat will be the last day..... My great grandmother lived a long age of 95 years old.....

My Christmas Presents~

Ytd went to my grandma house to celebrate Christmas with my cousins.........

Before tat, i'm working half day... And after that, i went to Bugis to buy presents for my cousins.....

Had a hard time buying things for them, as they have special request..... And also, it is not easy to buy for 6 kids! Actually is 10, but got 4 is their parents buy le den claim money from us.....

I also need to buy gift for my mum and aunt..... My mum is easy.... Cos i already noe what she wan and for my aunt i saw wat i wan to buy at Bugis when i meet up with Ailing and Samantha....

So i walked around looking and also, it is not easy with a budget of $8-9.... (Given by my mum) And the place is crowded with ppl...

Haiz.... when i finally finished with my gift shopping, it's already 6plus and i havent wrapped yet..... And worse of all... It is raining heavily.... I need to make sure the presents are dry and struggling with umbrella.....

Went home and wrapped all the present in a rush and went to my grandma house.....

Even before i stepped into the house, i'm surrounded by my cousins asking for presents..... After giving them out, i went to eat my dinner....

I'm sooooo hungry as i didnt have lunch at all.........

There are chicken wings, fried and bbq, mashed potato with mushrooms, chicken and corns, spagetti, honey baked ham and pizza...... There are also mango log cake and brownie with ice-cream......

Eat until veri veri full that day....... Sinful........ :p

Well, in conclusion for Christmas this year,

I dun really feel or have the mood for Christmas, maybe cos i'm working and have been quite tired....... Hmmm... or i'm getting old???? Haha.......

I didnt went to any celebration, although Loydrea asked whether wan to join her fren party at pasir ris park..... But den it's raining and i'm tired after running around the whole afternoon..... Ven is celebrating with her sec sch fren as per usual...... Dinah i not too sure, cos initially we planned to go to Loy's fren party.....

Maybe New Year ba....... Actually i missed going countdown with a group of frenz..... It's fun..... Want to go clubbing someday.....

Kk... so a consolidate of what i received for Christmas....

Night wear shorts and ginger bread man from Ven, Dale bag from Loy and DKNY perfume from Dinah.....

Capitalmall voucher from Samatha and ZA Cutie Curl Mascara from Ailing....

Lip Gloss from Wei wei (my smallest aunt) and earrings from for 2nd aunt......

Yellow bag from my 3rd aunt.... :)

MOF @ Bugis

Gift exchange with Ailing and Samantha at Bugis!

Hmmm.... I dunno how come the photo so small... Cos is from Samatha's camara.... I cannot enlarge it or it will turn out blur..... Can someone teach me how to prevent it from being blur after i enlarge it????

For Samatha, i gave her m)phosis's makeup poach... cos she tell me she wants that... haha... And Ailing gave her Levis voucher....

Samantha gave me Capitalmall voucher and Ailing canmake eyeshadow....

As for me and Ailing, both of us bought the same thing for each other........ ZA Cutie Curl Mascara.... Lol.....

Cos we both sent wish list to each other and we both wanted ZA Cutie Curl mascara... soooo.... But it is one of the items on the list and we choose the same thing.. haha.....

This photo is taken by a staff at MOF... I tink he/she (i forgot is a guy or gal) likes the pic behind...... :p