Arggggghhhh... Should be studyin now and not blogging...... Cos my mum use the comp to fill her tax.... So tempt mi to use the comp...... Haiz.... Later muz study... Need to finish my marketing by this month... Which is this coming monday.... And i still have 5 topics to go..... Havent even touch my IM and Macro... Die lah.... FI and MSM onli touch abit.... Realli scared cannot finish.....

Next week going to JB with Loydrea to buy contact lens.... Cos there buy cheaper.... Hopefully everything goes smoothly..... Go there shop shop also... Need retail therapy...

Last week there is a career fair going on in our school... But the companies there not veri related to what i want..... While we are there, we were approached by Great Eastern insurance..... They talk until like can earn alot of money, flexible hours, etc..... But den we need to find our own client which i dun like...... My networking sucks..... We went there during lunch hours and they tok to us for abt 1 hr... we are soooo hungry by then.....

At the fair, we came across an auditing firm which looks quite good... therefore, i will KIV it and see how......

But i'm quite disappointing that there was no banks, HSBC not counted cos it is HSBC Insurance, which i wan to know more abt....

Next tues got OCBC career talk going on... But the seats are fully booked..... We will still go to try our luck..... Hopefully a lot of ppl cannot make it and we can go in..... :)

Den fri after revision class meet up with Ailing to go Bugis for SHOPPING!!!!!!....Need it.... :p

MY AIM:

SCORE ABOVE 60 FOR ALL MY SUBJECTS!!!!! GANBUTE!!!!!

It's a rainy day again..... It's been raining for few days already.... Although i prefer raining days den sunny days... (cos it will be hot at home) But the rain is making mi sleepy.... cannot concentrate on my studies.... I'm going nowhere.... Haiz... Someone plsssss help mi...... I really need to get a start on the study mood......

The modules are a killer and i really need to concentrate and start studying....... I dun wan to fail any this year..... I wan to graduate with good scores.... Haiz....

Last week meet up with Kacy for a movie, The Leap Years.... It's good... Romantic..... I like Ananda... He is soooo fit... Good body..... :p

After movie, we sit down at Coffee Bean for some drinks and cake and chit-chat..... Kacy gave mi an update on what is going on in the office.....

I'm really scare for my exams....,... sob..... But the thing is... i'm all tok but no action.... I need something to motivate mi......

Hope tat shan is on for our sat shopping spree..... I tink retail therapy might help... lol......

This is my last year.. so i dun wan to have any regret....

Hmm..... I like writing here and there.... going to something den back to my study...... But i can't help thinking abt it..... If i can convert this energy into my studies it will be good for mi....

Dunno when is our career fair..... There is one coming up... but the companies participate is not what i wan..... So hoping that there will be another more useful one coming.... Need to start sending resume le.... Kiasu... After hearing so many people sending le......

Sometimes my future seemed so bleak....
Dark and black without lights....
Worry and shivering....
Hope tat one can guide me through.....


P.S Ailing..... when u free??? we go Asia Bar????

Today is 3rd March le..... Haiz.... so fast March le.... This sat got marketing mock exam but i still havent study finish.... Die.... The other subject all haven't started.... When i see my MSM notes i sian 1/2 le.... Cos veri messy... All the topics here and there....

Must really start working hard... dun wan to be like last year......

Wed meeting Kacy for dinner.... veri long never c her le...... tink she getting skinnier and skinnier... Haiz.... life in citibank is like tat...... Den friday going out with mum to bugis there to pray for my studies..... den to chinatown to buy something.....

I'm getting poorer and poorer.......

Sometimes, i'm scared of graduating, looking for a job, working full time...... I like challenges... I dun like to be doing the same thing day by day... It's boring..... So i tinking.... Do i really want to work 9-6 deskbound job??? Is it really suitable for mi??? I like travelling..... So perhaps i can find a job which need mi to go oversea from times to times or they will post mi to another country for ard 2 years..... I like to experience new things..... I kind of regret the way i live my life.....

For example, i regret that i'm not tat active in school, not joining any clubs, activities.... When there is opportunities to go oversea for intern, i didn't go (although partly is because i dun have $$).... And there is soooo many things i wan to try.... I wan to learn subra-diving, dancing, etc..... And i wan to try water-sports....... Most of all, i wan to travel the world!!! I wan to try backpacking, with a few frenz, driving along maybe, New Zealand? Australia?.....

I envy my cousins... They are able to go to european country for exchange programme and to places like Africa for their internship...... How i wish i got the chance to go....... And how i wish i'm a guy or at least not the only child and have the funds to go...... But i'm not.... My mum will worried abt mi, and i have no money to do so......

So, i hope to be able to earn money and when oversea to different countries each year..... I know some of u may think that, "Oh, just save money and go for a tour ard the world when u retire.." But i can't wait.. And when i'm old, who knows wat will happen??? So, i wan to take a look at the world while i'm young...... I dun wan to have anymore regrets in my life....... And i dun wan mine to be normal, ordinary.....